College Essay - Personal Essay

                         Sha-nae Foster-Bey          September 15, 2016

                            Multi. Lit                              Period: 8

     You ever felt isolated or felt like no one liked you? Well try being the new girl in your 8th grade year, coming to school where no one knows you and already has their own special friendships. When everyone already has a friend group they don't really care to add on, especially if you don't fit into their way of life. Hello I’m Sha-nae and it was that new girl in the school.

          Upon arriving to this new school, I was completely nervous, not having and friends or relatives that I could comfort to. This change in my life cradled me with fear and despair. At school it seemed as though I was none existent to everyone around. Not one person made an effort to even say “hi” or at least ask my name. I missed my old school, with all my friends, people who actually cared for me. I tried to hold on to my memories of them because it seemed that would be my closest thing to friends for a while.

         Building a friend base is not the easiest task to overcome, especially because I was so shy and fearful of going up to someone and getting completely ignored. “If only I could snap my fingers and everyone would like me” I repeated to myself on a daily basis.

        Raising my hand in class wasn't even an option because then everyone would stare and whisper and I got enough of that walking through the halls.

  “Make Friends! Make Friends! Make Friends!” That's all I need is to make friends.

        If I could just make friends I won't have to skip lunch because I have nobody to sit with. I won't look so lonely walking in the hallway.

            I felt like this every day, always reminding me of how my school life would be different if I would stop being scared and just speak up to someone. Oddly I came to the conclusion that I was being unrealistic, I had allowed myself to think that I could just think it and it would miraculous happen rather than actually taking action and make a friend or even raise my hand in class when I was sure of an answer. Noticing my confliction I made a decision to not only take action but also not worry if someone would judge me or have a negative opinion. I forced myself to interact, even if it was sometimes a little awkward. After I made a change, one day I walked in class and someone actually said hi to me at first I didn't think I really heard it but a voice repeated “ hey Sha-nae!” This gesture gave me a sense of endearment now I was more confident in myself and what I could accomplish. Now that I reassured myself my grades were back on track I was participating and wait for wait for it…. I FINALLY made a friend!!