Friends

So you already know how the saying goes...money is everything. many of us have come to find out this is not always the case. While in some devilish scheming cases, money can buy friendships-the lack there of will also cause them to end. To case and point- you are obviously investing in the wronf type of friendships for all the wrong reasons.

Then you have people whose lives are...OH SOOO DEPRESSING! out of nowhere they win the lottery, or a new house is built and the Mortgage is paid off. All of a sudden you hear them exclaim.."Oh this is more than i could ever ask for!" HA, and while there are the few humble ( God Bless you), for the most part the now bold and wealthy become arogant and self centered losing more than they could ever ask for!

So i write this, april 30th 2007- to tell you about the dangers of money?? NO no, do what you will with it. I write this not for the importance of money but for the importance of a true friendship. I will admit that i myself find it hard to take myself seriously as i sit here in my care bear pjs tucked under the covers; my hair having a mind of its own and my glasses finding their comfort spot on the bridge of my nose! Through all this though i am a serious person!

Not knowing what to do is such a terrible thing. doing it alone is even worse. Noone really wants to hear that of the boring life of a fellow member unless somehow it will benefit their life..any other time all they here is Blah blah blah! I used to think, and still do from time to time that i could do things alone, when honestly i needed someone by my side. when i was dating my boyfriend at the time, Darryl wayne, whom ive always called bear, and have decided that since i always have i always will, i told him that i didnt construct best friendships due to the fact that people become jelous saying " i thought i was your bestfriend" This was the first time i had allowed myself to have a true best friend, a true friendship. Not because he was my boyfriend but because he understood me for me. Now who ive been nor who i will be but the here and now. Wev'e been apart for three weeks, the first being the most difficult week of my life. When i lost him as my boyfriend, I knew for sure that i had lost everything with him. The other day i saw him and i thought it would be very hard to look at him, but it felt so right. when he