Thoughts - Personal Essay

Hey so I’m gonna make the point of this letter to say the things that I don’t think of on the spot when I’m with you or just about you in general.

I don’t say it as much as you but you really do make me so happy. I feel so comfortable with you and can talk to you about anything. I like listening to your stories because they genuinely make me die of laughter. It makes me sad that you have dreams about me cheating on you I know we’re not going out officially but I still feel like I’m with you and don’t want to do that to you.

My mindset is not in a good place right now, and that’s something that I need to deal with myself right now. I know you’re there for me for when I want to talk about it but there’s some times where I don’t want to deal with anyone. Maybe that makes it worse but I know I can get out of this slump I’m in. I didn’t feel that way at all when I was with you cause you take my mind off things like that, but yesterday and even today I haven’t been good mentally. I think smoking a little bit will help but it might have done the opposite. Im not trying to make excuses for when I don’t text or call you back but I’m aware I do it cause I focus my mind on something else and don’t want to deal with much else.