Diamond in the Ruff

Where did I Go wrong?

"Stop Clifford," Neaveh said.

"No b***h. Lay there and don't get up!"

"What did I do," as I lay there he began to take off my clothes.

"Didn't I tell you to stay still? I will kill you if you move again," he pulled out a knife.

"I'm sorry I'm scared please stop," I continued to ask him. I cried and I cried and before I knew it he was pushing it inside of me and I was crying and he still continued. He pumped in and out of me more than five times. He pushed it completely in and he groaned and pulled it out.

"Good girl you b***h"

"Why?"

I got home at 2:20 a.m. I ran into the bathroom my father came and beat on the bathroom door.

"Neveah come out this bathroom now. What is your problem coming in my house at two-twenty in the morning?"

All he could hear were sobs.

"Open the door sweetie, what's wrong?"

I opened the door and gave my father a hug.

"Sweetie you have to tell me what happened."

"Daddy," sob "This boy from my school forced himself on top of me."

"Are you sure sweet heart?"

He looked down and then he seen the blood

"Were going to file a police report."

"No, he told me he would kill me if I told anybody but I'm trusting you."

"Okay sweetie, go take a bath and then go to sleep."

"Okay but daddy I'm, I'm bleeding down there."

"Just take a bath and put on a clean pair of panties."

"Okay"

I went into the bathroom and I ran some bath water. I got in and my private began to throb. That was my first time ever having sexual intercourse and I hated it. I washed my body and then I got out the tub and put on my bathrobe. When I got in my room to put on another pair of underwear I noticed that I was still bleeding since I didn't know what to do I just went to sleep. As I lay in my bed I prayed that this was all a dream and when I woke up it would all be a dream.

My alarm clock went off and I woke up. I felt a little depressed because I could still remember what happened last night. I was debating over whether or not I should go to school today. I felt really moist and warm. I got out of the bed to go to the restroom. As I was walking I just so happened to look down at my body the whole bottom half of me was soaked in blood. I turned around to look at my bed it was covered in red. I just stood there and cried not knowing what to do. I went in the bathroom and washed down there I put a pad on because I didn't understand why I was still bleeding I wasn't on my period last night before it happened. I changed the sheets on my bed and then I put them in the washer machine and put new sheets on the bed. I ran to the hallway to grab the cordless phone. I called my best friend Santeria.

"Hello"

"Hi this is Neveah may I please speak to Santeria?"

"Yes hold on one minute."

"Okay."

One minute pause.

"Hello, what is wrong why are you calling me and school starts in an hour. Why aren't you getting ready?

"Santeria I need to talk to you. I'm not going to school today something really bad happened last night."

"What is it? What happened? Do I need to bring something?"

"No just meet me at the shack."

"Okay I'll be there in thirty minutes."

Neaveh hung up the phone. Santeria went downstairs to talk to her mom.

"Ma"