My Life

If you knew I was dying would it change you?

Sometimes I don't even know what I feel anymore, I'm lost in my emotions. Everyday brings a new challenge into my life, and everyday it just seems to get harder. Living in this world has turned me mad. I regret every mistake I have done, and for some reason I never learned from them. You have no idea how much I dread waking up and knowing that I have to go to school, the place I hate the most. Loneliness overpowers me and I just sit there, like a soulless creature. Seeing all the beautiful faces makes me sick, because I know that I will never be beautiful. My heart hurts, it just naturally hurts. I guess I was born this way, I guess I was born just to suffer. Why do I act like this? Why do I put myself into so much misery? The thing that sucks the most in life is knowing that you're headed no where, knowing that you're just slowly destroying yourself. The things I went through in my life are so horrible and I wish I can just block those terrifying memories, but I think the devil just brings them back into my head just to taunt me. Honestly, I just want people to see that I suffer, for once in my life I want to know that someone cares. I just want to go back to the times where I believed that there was actually a purpose for me living,